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Si alguien lee o presta siquiera atención a esto...puede que hayan notado que hace un tiempo que no estoy subiendo nada............ Eso es por que estoy trabajando en unos mini comics para un concurso (no se si subo algo de lo que estoy haciendo me traerá problemas...). Pero estar trabajando en estos comics me ha hecho notar aun mas las debilidades que tengo al dibujar....y viendo esto mientras se acerca mi 32º cumple años me ha puesto en una posición depresiva.
habiendo llegado a esta edad y ver tantas limitaciones que tengo fue un golpe duro...... Aunque he mejorado muchísimo desde que tome un lápiz a los....4 años? hasta los 14 donde todavía era incapaz de hacer algo decente hasta hoy me hace perder la fe en todo lo que he hecho. Es como si sintiera una barrera invisible que no puedo romper y que parecería que nunca voy a lograr romper...... incluso a veces parecería que me olvidara de lo que se.
Esto me ha estado molestando aun mas dado que estaba meditando seria meten entrar e eso del PATREON...viendo que ... gente de mi nivel o menos esta haciendo dinero con ello.....(y dado que sigo desempleado y mi país va cada vez mas para atrás en su situación).....pensé: "por que no?" después de todo, si no voy a conseguir trabajo y mis sueños de ser un dibujante de cómics profesional ya están muertos por lo menos podría tratar por lo menos de hacer algo de dinero y dibujar al mismo tiempo....
pero como podría hacer algo así, si me cuesta tanto hacer unas simples 4 paginas? como podría siquiera pedir dinero por dibujar si todos los días estoy luchando con dibujar correctamente siluetas femenina, colorear de una manera atractiva y compleja o dibujar fondos?
30 años me tomo llegar a donde estoy...y estoy tan lejos de aquellos a que admiro y cada vez que veo a algún lado en la web, encuentro miles de jóvenes que me superan con creces......
cuantos años mas me va tomar llegar a un mejor nivel? no importa cuanto practico, sigo teniendo los mismos problemas y sigo sin poder avanzar. se que yo soy quien mas duro me juzgo, pero si no logro tampoco demostrarme a mi que puedo ser mejor, como voy a
seguir adelante? como voy a dejar de verme como un niño sentado dibujando frente a sus amigos y comenzar a sentirme como un artista? a veces siento que si no sucede un milagro tal vez abandone los lapices para siempre.....
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If there is anyone who cares or even was wondering......you may have seen some lack of activity here....that´s because im working on 2 mini comics for a contest (im not sure if uploading some art from it would get me in trouble...). Anyway, working ion those comics has been tough and also make me aware of many of my own weakness while drawing and that, combined with my upcoming 32º birthday has been affecting me a lot....
Being this old and being so limited with my drawing has being tough for me....I know i have improved a lot since my humble begginings at age...... 4? trough my teen years (age 14) when i was still horrible and uncapable of doing something decent until tday...
that´s something that haunts me each day, making me lose all fate on my self.
It´s like there´s an invisible barrier that y can´t brake no matter what i do....sometimes it´s even feels like i´ve had forgoten everything i learned.
This have been bugging me even more this days sincce i was really considering starting a PATREON since my life it´s a mess; can´t get a job (and off course my country it´s doing horrible, as usual) and my dreams are dead i tought that at least i may do some money by doing what i love (ive seen people at the same level doing fine)...... But how can i do that when im having so much trouble with 4 frikin pages? how can i ask for money in exchange for drawing when im strugglng each day with things like drawing the female figure, backgrounds or doing some decent coloring?
it took me 30 years to be where i am.....im so far away of the people i idolize and every day i see so many young people so much better than me.....
how many years more until i finally surpass my self? no matter how much i practice, im still having the same probles over and over again without improving. I know it´s all in my head and that im too harsh with myself but if i can prove myself that i can do it how am i gonna move foward? how am i going to stop seing my self a kid drawing in front of his parents and finally feel like i deserve to be called an artist? Sometimes i feel like if...............unless a miracle happens i may abandon drawing for good.
Si alguien lee o presta siquiera atención a esto...puede que hayan notado que hace un tiempo que no estoy subiendo nada............ Eso es por que estoy trabajando en unos mini comics para un concurso (no se si subo algo de lo que estoy haciendo me traerá problemas...). Pero estar trabajando en estos comics me ha hecho notar aun mas las debilidades que tengo al dibujar....y viendo esto mientras se acerca mi 32º cumple años me ha puesto en una posición depresiva.
habiendo llegado a esta edad y ver tantas limitaciones que tengo fue un golpe duro...... Aunque he mejorado muchísimo desde que tome un lápiz a los....4 años? hasta los 14 donde todavía era incapaz de hacer algo decente hasta hoy me hace perder la fe en todo lo que he hecho. Es como si sintiera una barrera invisible que no puedo romper y que parecería que nunca voy a lograr romper...... incluso a veces parecería que me olvidara de lo que se.
Esto me ha estado molestando aun mas dado que estaba meditando seria meten entrar e eso del PATREON...viendo que ... gente de mi nivel o menos esta haciendo dinero con ello.....(y dado que sigo desempleado y mi país va cada vez mas para atrás en su situación).....pensé: "por que no?" después de todo, si no voy a conseguir trabajo y mis sueños de ser un dibujante de cómics profesional ya están muertos por lo menos podría tratar por lo menos de hacer algo de dinero y dibujar al mismo tiempo....
pero como podría hacer algo así, si me cuesta tanto hacer unas simples 4 paginas? como podría siquiera pedir dinero por dibujar si todos los días estoy luchando con dibujar correctamente siluetas femenina, colorear de una manera atractiva y compleja o dibujar fondos?
30 años me tomo llegar a donde estoy...y estoy tan lejos de aquellos a que admiro y cada vez que veo a algún lado en la web, encuentro miles de jóvenes que me superan con creces......
cuantos años mas me va tomar llegar a un mejor nivel? no importa cuanto practico, sigo teniendo los mismos problemas y sigo sin poder avanzar. se que yo soy quien mas duro me juzgo, pero si no logro tampoco demostrarme a mi que puedo ser mejor, como voy a
seguir adelante? como voy a dejar de verme como un niño sentado dibujando frente a sus amigos y comenzar a sentirme como un artista? a veces siento que si no sucede un milagro tal vez abandone los lapices para siempre.....
English:
If there is anyone who cares or even was wondering......you may have seen some lack of activity here....that´s because im working on 2 mini comics for a contest (im not sure if uploading some art from it would get me in trouble...). Anyway, working ion those comics has been tough and also make me aware of many of my own weakness while drawing and that, combined with my upcoming 32º birthday has been affecting me a lot....
Being this old and being so limited with my drawing has being tough for me....I know i have improved a lot since my humble begginings at age...... 4? trough my teen years (age 14) when i was still horrible and uncapable of doing something decent until tday...
that´s something that haunts me each day, making me lose all fate on my self.
It´s like there´s an invisible barrier that y can´t brake no matter what i do....sometimes it´s even feels like i´ve had forgoten everything i learned.
This have been bugging me even more this days sincce i was really considering starting a PATREON since my life it´s a mess; can´t get a job (and off course my country it´s doing horrible, as usual) and my dreams are dead i tought that at least i may do some money by doing what i love (ive seen people at the same level doing fine)...... But how can i do that when im having so much trouble with 4 frikin pages? how can i ask for money in exchange for drawing when im strugglng each day with things like drawing the female figure, backgrounds or doing some decent coloring?
it took me 30 years to be where i am.....im so far away of the people i idolize and every day i see so many young people so much better than me.....
how many years more until i finally surpass my self? no matter how much i practice, im still having the same probles over and over again without improving. I know it´s all in my head and that im too harsh with myself but if i can prove myself that i can do it how am i gonna move foward? how am i going to stop seing my self a kid drawing in front of his parents and finally feel like i deserve to be called an artist? Sometimes i feel like if...............unless a miracle happens i may abandon drawing for good.
Good Bye Toriyama Sensei! bilingual post
And it was just true... A friend informed me this morning at dawn, I didn't want to believe it but now I confirmed it. is hard to say something... I had my love hate relationship with Dragon Ball and there are more important and influential works in my life but I cannot ignore the impact that this man's work had on me. Since that fateful day when I caught "Cooler's Revenge" at ATC and saw Dragon Ball for the first time in my life or how this series arrived with Sailor Moon and the Knights of the Zodiac, conforming "The Second Japanese Wave" and introduced me to the world of anime officially. Even my first steps in improving my drawing and learning about anatomy were taken by imitating Toriyama. Sadly, I don't have on hand one of my oldest drawings in life, which was precisely about Dragon Ball, to put here (nor time to draw something new either) but here is something old: Few know that the character that gives my account its name was first born as an attempt at a "manga self-portrait"
New Comics: Shiranyer G v1 plus cheaper versions
Hey! new Premium Galleries are up! Budget size versions of Sonic: Emerald chaos & Megaman: Rock N´ Roll Tune and switch. same size as free versions but revisited dialogues and tweaked pannels with no watermarks & Onna Yushaa Robot Shiranyer G: An Original Mecha (Super Robot) Comic. SIPNOSIS: Is the year 200X. The Country of Neo Japan is constantly under attack by Gigantic Foes: Alien Invaders, Ancient Civilizations, kaijus and demons from Another Dimension. The only Defence Neo Japan has? Giant Super Robots! In this new World, Each city has it´s own Protector and all the country´s economy revolves around them. Pilots are celebrities and can achieve world fame and riches as well! women can only become support side kicks, warming the crowds as a way to achieve idol status and the country allows citizens to get their license and become pilots themselves. When the city of Neo Tokyo loses it´s Champion,a young girl named Minako Takeuchi will step in as the city´s new savior with her
Irregular Huntress X is here!
Finally, it´s done! Thismanga/Doujinshi was idea i came up like 20 years ago Born in 2001 when i discovered Rule 63 and trying to undestand it got me to draw my first Female X. couple of month´s later, afetr a fw more drawings i got the crazy idea of drawing X & Zero copying the style of Mokona Apapa & Clamp´s Magic Knight Rayearth and thus 4 quick pages were born. Apersonal project and a real landmark for me. somethign that without the support of Patrons and Commissioners, it would never happened. I uploaded theme here in 2010, becoming my first slightly successful post. In 2017 i used Medibang Pro to ink them and finally, 3 years ago/4 i decided to complete the manga as my first Patreon Special Content. And now is finally done and comming here! i will upload it for free (1 page per month like all other comics i do) but it will also available as a Premium Gallery, featured in full resolution. https://www.deviantart.com/kabuto-gouki/gallery/88869181/irregular-huntress-x-full-manga-
New Aditions to the Exclusive Artwork Gallery
Added all new/Missing Patreon Exclusive Pieces & Some other improv pics i did there as well. https://www.deviantart.com/kabuto-gouki/gallery/87539902/patreons-monthly-drawings-3-years-collection The Amount of pieces there now ascends to 74.I think that compensates way more for it´s price now. some of the New Additions include: Rule 63 luke (SF6) With NSFW Variant Officer Jenny Fan ART Spamtom Fanart Completed Ranma & Lum Fusion Peacock Fan Art Completed Full size r63 Silver the Hedgehog r63 Full size Queen Breeze 2 pieces Saint Seiya x Pokemon mash up. 2 pieces Cyber six Fan Art K.N.D Father Rule 63 with Variant Panty & Srocking Fan ART Megaman X r63 Casual Clother (tune switch inspired) Megaman X R63 Valentine´s outfit/armor April o Neil Fan Art R63 Jonathan Joestar R63 Yuusha Rydeen R63 Scott Pilgrim Devil Man Portrait Megaman (Tune Switch ver) & Sonic (emerald chaos ver) Plus 3 years of Exclusive pieces done for Patreon, all at full resolution and watermark free
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Entiendo a lo que refieres, a veces parece que nunca uno podrá lograr llegar a ser tan bueno como uno lo desearía, eso es algo que le pasa a muchos artistas.